i can only felt the peacefulness inside me whenever i went to my hometown..my nieces & cousins, they always make me laugh..my opah will always there to listen & taught me..my aunties will always feed me with lots of nice delicious foods *nyummy! but definitely they can't beat my mom's signature dishes haha*..all my worries magically just flew away..

hurm..maybe i should change my workplace, shouldn't i?.....

selamat tinggal kawan ku

tak mudah aku pergi

bila wajah mu

sentiasa di hati ini

ok dah memang
bukan mudah untuk ku menerima hakikat
dalam hidup ini sentiasa ku tersekat
apa yang ku harapkan
kasih sayang yang suci murni
tetapi semuanya hilang setelah kau pergi
dulu hari-hari ku berwarna warni
kini kian mendung
ia tinggal satu memori
jangan, jangan lepaskan genggamanku ini
hidupku hanya bermakna jika kau di sini...

agak-agak pernah dengar lagu ni tak?..lagu dia aku suka sangat..bagi aku ia straight to the point & tak merapu ayat dia..tak berkias sangat..just nice

aku bukan jenis yang jiwang - jiwang selalu sebenarnya *tak reti kot*..tapi sekali datang feeling aku tu, habis la tak tahu berapa zaman tempoh dia haha..aku garang tapi hati fragile, agak sensitif.. so redha je la siapa yang kawan / kahwin dengan aku ye..*nasib baik ada insan yang terima aku seadanya*

semenjak kejadian menyatakan rasa sejujurnya, semenjak tu aku rasa macam tak bermaya je..hari - hari aku blur..hari - hari hampir mengeluarkan permata walau senyuman terukir..bukan tak bersyukur dengan apa yang dimiliki sekarang, tapi......ada apa dengan perasaan..haish, sila kuat semangat nurul!

p.s - sesi luah perasaan la pula..dush2~

hurmm..i'm thinkin about gettin more pocket money but i run out of idea on what job i can do..freelance will do..how about freelance photographer? no, i don't have that 'snap2' skills..makeup artist? hehe i don't think so..after all i don't always wear makeups..baking? haha at this time being i only know how to make kek batik & fruit pudding..sewing? adeyy lagi la aku tak reti..personal driver? haha definitely a no no..i'm afraid the passenger himself will gonna 'drive' me instead haha *astagfirullah..eeikk*..but a school bus driver might be cool hehe..

but on the second thought, i think maybe i just should quit my current job (the truth is i can't take it anymore) & find a new one..but then, again, i don't know what is the right job for me..oohhh dilemma..i love playing with graphics, which means i can apply as a graphic designer or perhaps as a web designer but usually they preferred a person that has a degree/diploma in multimedia..sigh..

i do love kids as well therefore i think working at the nursery or pre-school would be great too..even though i don't have any experience in that field at all but somehow i'll learn..haha i my dreams!!  it's not goin to be easy to get the job but i believe it's worth trying..right??

yeaa people might said "looking on the economy here in our country right now, not so good maaa..how can you find a new job one?"..nevertheless you need to remember that 'tuah ayam nampak dikaki, tuah manusia siapa yang tahu'..insyaAllah :-)

Thanks to my dear cousin, Rid. .He's the one who shot this video during my engagement ceremony on 30th April 2011..hehe i really love it! Enjoy the video hehe..

song by Colbie Caillat, I do..

the big day is around the corner..fuuuhh my heart feels like --> dush² ; bang² ; kebabomm!

already bought the engagement ring & i have recently completed the preparations for the engagement day..*i guess..hehe*

the big day will be held on 30th April 2011 at my parent's crib in Shah Alam..hopefully everything will go smooth~

p.s - extremely nervous..my heart goes likeso fast~

perghh..gila la aku dah lama tak update blog aku..dah berhabuk bersawang2..terlalu sibuk sekarang ni, dengan dapat task baru kat office, terkulat2 aku nak catch up semua benda baru & pelik2 tu..lepas tu ada perkara baru sedang berlaku dalam hidup aku pula, hehe tapi shaye suka~! *mula la aku berangan seperti berada di awangan* (｡◕‿◕｡)

insyaAllah, ahad ni pergi beli c****n..tak sabar rasanya hehe..setiap malam tersengih2 sebelum tidur, muka pun dah mula naik jerawat..makcik aku cakap "tu jerawat gatai..haha"..hari2 selepas solat aku berdoa semoga Allah permudahkan segala urusan, minta diizinkan segala perancangan menjadi & lancar..amin :)

p.s - dinda rindu kanda selalu ❤..